Confession.
I must admit, there are still times that I do feel this way. Not that I'm being emotional or wallowing in self pity, I guess there's still this anxious and pathetic little kid part of me, despite all the confidence I show.
I don't think it's wrong though. It's being vulnerable. It's being human. It's not being fake. I would like to think it's called trying.
There would be times that I would feel like I am someone worthless, someone who isn't really interesting enough for people to talk to, someone who is just an option. It even came to a point where I wanted to give up on hoping that everything will change. To just accept the fact that I am really no one. But then I realized it was not a fact, it was just another one of the many lies my demons were telling me.
To be honest, I really don't mind that kid being there, for I know I can never really get rid of her. Its just a matter of telling her it will all be okay; it will all be worth it in the end, and that she is precious. There is always hope. God's still looking.
xx
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